Hey Pandas, What Was Your ‘Gay Awakening’? – Bored Panda
Or trans, or ace, or anything queer! What was your sudden, ‘ah shit I’m LGBTQ+’ moment?
Don’t hate! We love everyone, except you, queerphobes.
Not a gay awakening as such, I am heterosexual, more of a realisation that people are not necessarily 100% straight. And that sexuality is not black and white.
I watched the Rocky Horror Picture Show aged 18 and thought wow, those men look hot ins suspenders and boots.
Since then I can admit to finding women, men, people that straddle that line, attractive.
Never explored that attraction, not sure if I ever will. but can happily admire beauty and sexiness.
When I realized I was looking at girls more than guys. I have had a gf for 12 years now and am happy about my place in LGBTQ+ community.
When I began middle school, I met this other gal named Savanna. We became fast friends and hung out together incessantly. When we both became freshmen, she became a cheerleader and I, despite being no where near cheerleader material, followed her just to be with her more.
Two years later, she was killed in a car accident. The moment I heard she was gone, I realized I had long since fallen in love with her, but it took losing her to see that love for what it really was.
That was over 20 years ago and I still started crying writing this. I guess you really never stop loving your first.
I’ve had two sort of distinct ones, one was more of a creeping suspicion and the other was a Hail Mary.
1) Kinda stupid, but playing Super Smash Bros: WoL in Spirit Mode. I had a type. I managed to halfway convince myself that I liked the pretty girls just bc I appreciated the art, but… nope.
2) I realized that straight people aren’t super uncomfortable with the idea of being straight/in a straight relationship. I just… really didn’t want to be straight. It seemed wrong. And yet I was still pretty convinced that I was doomed to be eternally hetero. Nope, I’m as gay as they come 😜🏳️🌈
Edit: I am gender-fluid, however I still consider myself to be lesbian. If that makes sense. I don’t have masculine energy very often, it’s typically feminine, androgynous, or demi-masculine. And THAT whole roller coaster is another story altogether.
When I was in 7th grade, I went to a summer camp. I had lots of fun, and I met a great girl. We laughed a lot, and I had this fluttering feeling whenever I saw her. I kept trying to deny what I felt, as I grew up in a strict Catholic household. Eventually though, I realized what I was feeling was okay, and I shouldn’t be ashamed of myself.
The one I tell people is Herminone from Harry Potter but I know the truth
… Doofenshcmritz’s daughter from Phineas and Ferb
Ahem….I present Poison Ivy, the villainess.
Ace but emotionally romantic here:
Never had any desire/interest in dating, no physical attraction to people but never thought too much about it. Did have a boyfriend for a time, but was always more in tune with the emotional over physical aspects. There were times when I wondered what was wrong with me, especially when he started to get pushy with physical things. Thankfully that broke off after highschool as there was a lot wrong with that relationship. (A lot of judgement and pressure among other things).
One day driving home my Mum turns to me at random and asks: hey are you ace?
I thought for a few moments and basically went
“Ooooh. That makes sense.”
Putting a word to it helped with the feelings of being “broken” in a way, and it opened up a way to communicate up front with people. It makes growing close to people a lot easier now, although there is still always the fear that while people say they are okay with things up front, that at some point there will be disappointment.
Thinking about it also helped me reflect on the fact that I tend to get crushes on girls far more often lol.
When I was 4 and was stalking a very attractive 19-year-old wherever I went. Looking back it was very creepy but I was barely able to know what attraction was. (We’re both guys)
well.. i never really had a gay awaking i just kinda always knew i swung both ways right? but i realised i was ace because whenever i imagined myself doing it with anyone i felt disgusted. now i know i might not be ace and that might just be dysphoria.
I came out as bisexual for the first times yesterday, both to a friend, and on BP, and it went great! I mean, it was very gradual mostly, like I loved girl in red’s music, and heartstopper and stuff like that, but I just think that’s because they’re good! When it REALLY hit me though, was when I developed this crush on this girl. I mean it went on for a while, but I had convinced myself that I just thought she was pretty. Then one morning, she smiled and it just really hit me. Internally I was like, ‘Right, I think I’m gay.’ Sadly, she is very very straight and very out of my league anyway, so I am trying my hardest to get over her at the moment. But yeah, I’m definitely bi. Not a big fan of labels though, I just like who I like 🙂
I always knew I was aroace despite not having the vocabulary for it– my parents will tell this story about how a very young me would loudly insist that “IF i EVER get married, I’m not kissing the groom. Im fist bumping him. Because kissing is gross.” I finally found the vocabulary through two separate online role plays because I had to Google them to figure out what they meant and not seem weird. Promptly tried not to slam my head into a desk from embarrassment.
I always knew I was aroace despite not having the vocabulary for it– my parents will tell this story about how a very young me would loudly insist that “IF i EVER get married, I’m not kissing the groom. Im fist bumping him. Because kissing is gross.” I finally found the vocabulary through two separate online role plays because I had to Google them to figure out what they meant and not seem weird. Promptly tried not to slam my head into a desk from embarrassment.
I always knew I was aroace despite not having the vocabulary for it– my parents will tell this story about how a very young me would loudly insist that “IF i EVER get married, I’m not kissing the groom. Im fist bumping him. Because kissing is gross.” I finally found the vocabulary through two separate online role plays because I had to Google them to figure out what they meant and not seem weird. Promptly tried not to slam my head into a desk from embarrassment.
I always “knew” I was aroace (aromantic and asexual), and even on a small level nonbinary, despite not growing up with the terminology. My family will tell you the story about how I loudly declared at several points in my childhood that IF I *somehow* ever got married, I wouldn’t be kissing my husband. I’d give him a fist bump instead. My gender expression and view of my body were not really either solidly Male or female, and I’d often take steps to specifically be seen as one or the other. I didn’t exactly question it, even after I learned about being gay or binary trans? I kinda thought it was just how cis het people thought, and if anything I was pan.
I learned I was not straight or cis because of online roleplays I took part in with friends as a teenager where at three separate points in the span of a year I had to Google parts of my identity so I didn’t seem like a colossal idiot (asexual, agender, and then aromantic).
Somehow, I did not feel like any less of an idiot 😔
Last year (sixth grade) my pe class was in a football unit and the boys were being a*sholes to me and one of my friends. I was like “well i hate boys and i bond better with girls. am i lesbian?” surprise surprise I was bi for a while before I (yet again) realised I only romantically like girls. Now I’m also asexual and demigirl.
I recently realized I am bisexual. I figured It out because there is a girl (I am also a girl) in my school that I’ve always been really attracted to. It took me a while to figure it out because I had never felt like that before, but It’s the longest crush I’ve ever had on anyone. It’s been a year and a half and I still really like her.
Less of a “Gay awakening” and more of an Ace one.
About 6 months ago I realized I was forcing myself to like people, and that I never really felt an attraction to people choked it up to me being demisexual. Then I started scrolling on ace subreddit and watching ace videos from onetopicatatime and such and was like “Woah I relate to that a lot! Still not ace tho” Lol-
When I was younger I was OBSESSED with Zendaya and Tom Holland, I had HUGE crushes on them. And that’s how I realized I am absolutely Bi or Pan.
Raquelle from that one barbie show. I also used to make all my girls dolls be girlfriends and claimed it was because I had no male ones. (i purposely did not get any)
Haha, gay people, hehehe
