Gay People Are Sharing Their Shocking Stories About Being In Conversion Therapy, And It’s Heartbreaking – BuzzFeed

14. And finally, “I went to a ‘special psychologist’ or ‘psychiatrist,’ but he was a ‘former gay man’ who had since turned his life over to God. The first eight times, my mom went with me. This was moments after she found out that my lifelong friend and I were actually dating each other (and having sex) for much of that time. We started around twelve and were together until our senior year in high school. While we were there, the guy basically said that my desire to be with men was due to my desire to ‘conquer’ the other man.”

“Starting on the ninth visit, I was going by myself. I was mostly doing this to appease my parents, as they were under the impression being gay (well, bisexual in my case) was a choice, and that I could change it if I wanted to. It was kinda nice getting some of the feelings out that I’d been keeping largely to myself. I’ve never kept a diary/journal or anything. He’s telling me about his former life, and how much he hated/resented the fact that he found men attractive, and liked having sex with them. I was telling him about how much I absolutely loved my guy. I  told him how I didn’t feel the slightest regret for what I’d done. I wasn’t that big into religion as a kid, certainly not as much as my parents were. 

Sometime after the 12th to 16th week, I started getting this creepy vibe from the guy. Like he wanted to make a move on me. So I told my parents, and that was the end of that. To this day, we haven’t brought it up. And my parents really don’t even acknowledge that I’m into guys. It’s always just ‘You’ll find the right girl someday.”’

—anonymous