14 Coming Out Stories From Gays In Straight Marriages – BuzzFeed

2. “I knew I was gay, but where I grew up it was not OK to be gay, so I hid in my imaginary closet too scared to come out for fear that I would be beaten up and rejected. So I got married, not once but twice. Both marriages lasted about four years. The first marriage was without children. I tried so hard not to be gay. I confessed to a pastor and was told I need to be accountable to him. I was seeing a guy after my first marriage ended and I was told I needed to break up with him. I needed to be in church every time the church was open. I needed to attend a daily prayer group. I met with this pastor every Tuesday after prayer group for a two-hour bible study. And at least 2-4 times in a two-year period, I would fast for three days and then have Satan cast out of me by two pastors.”

“Then I met my second wife at church one day. She was beautiful and definitely out of my league. We quickly got married and had our first child. I was trying so hard to be straight, but marriage is difficult especially when married to someone that you do not desire. In that marriage, my wife and I created two beautiful kids. We divorced when they were 3 and 1 years old. I finally came out when I was about 42 years old and my kids were 8 and 5 years old.”

—Anonymous